Well. It's been a rough week here in the Kelby Househould. (I would say Hicks Household, but then I feel like I'm talking about the parentals and then it just gets confusing. And lets be honest...I don't like confusion. Chaos, yes. Confusion, no. But alas, I digress).
Rough week by human standards. But can I be honest? (Yes, I can. This is my bloggity blog after all.) A great week by spirital standards. Learning to rely on my Lord all over again. Not always the lesson you want to learn...but a worthy one nevertheless.
However, with all of these things...I feel like worry and faith are waging a tremendous battle in my head right now.
Worry vs. Faith.
A fight to the death.
Who will be the victor?
In this corner...you have Worry. An emotion that hides behind cynicism. A competitor who uses reality as its primary weapon. A fighter who is strong and mighty...but really serves no great purpose in our life. Except maybe to get our blood pressure up and cause us some rather tramatic sleepless nights. Damn you Worry.
And in this corner....you have Faith. Faith. Sometimes casted as the weaker of the two. And always the underdog. The harder of the two to grasp. Worry comes so freely. Faith is always a work in progress. But with Faith comes peace. And trust. Which are two important factors in Love. And aren't we called to Love? Love like God loved us?
Worry vs. Faith.
May the odds be ever in your favor. (Sorry...had to.)
So who wins? Who will win this battle that is waging in my head and my heart right now? Obviously I know Faith is the victor. Faith is the victory (thank you Church of Christ upbringing for teaching me all the old hymns so that I could regurtitate them whenever the time is right.) And here's what I've learned as I've been praying constantly and seeking the advice of people more wise than me (usually my sister...who is literally the smartest person I know.)
God wants me to be faithful. He does. He wants me to be faithful. He longs for me to love him the way he loves me. And faith goes hand-in-hand with love. In fact, those two are BFFs. They probably have those old Best Friends Forever necklaces circa 1990. Anyway, God wants me to be faithful. So because of that, I cannot worry. Worry doesn't like Faith. They are enemies. They are not BFFs.
Plus, guess what? God tells me not to worry. And if the Creator of the universe tells me not to do something....guess what? I'm going to try my darndest not to do it.
So this is what I'm meditating on today. Philippians 4:6-7.

Tell God what I need. And give thanks for all he has done.
Lord, you know what I need. And I'll tell you what I think I need on a less public forum.
Today. In this moment. Here is what I am so incredibly thankful for (and these are in no particular order):
*My health. I'm alive. I have two eyes, two ears, two legs. My heart is beating and I'm breathing. I'm healthy.
*My dog. As she sits on my lap barking at whoknowswhat. I love her and she is a constant reminder of how loving you are.
*My friends. You don't get thru the week I've had without the love and support from your friends.
*My family. Eeek. My family is totally better than anyone else's family and I freaking wouldn't exist without them.
*Coffee. Yes. This goes without saying.
*My computer. AKA my lifeline.
*My apartment home. It's so cozy and comfortable and I'm so thankful the Lord has provided me with it.
*Running (hot) water.
*The pool. Because the pool and I are best friends.
*The sun. I love the sun.
*My sewing machine. Because I love projects.
*My creativity. I've said this before and I'll say it again....I love that God put a little bit of his creativity in me. I love that I serve a creative God (duh, have you ever seen flamingos? Obviously God is creative).
*My friendship with my parents.
*My niece and my nephew whom I cannot wait to squeeze the crap out of this weekend. Yikes, those two bring so much joy to my life...It would be so empty without them.
*Food. I am so thankful that I have the ability to go out and get food whenever I want it.
*Lotion. It's summer and I'm thankful for the moisterizing cream lotion provides.
*Zumba. I am thankful for this constant de-stresser I have in my life.
This list could go on and on. And it will go on and on. Because in everything, give thanks.
"Don't worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you life in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7
So there Worry. You have been defeated. Faith wins.